laebkoang_michi @ 2008-04-24T22: 44:00
I find everything funny grad.
I'm fine when I am alone, well when I'm with Jenny. However, Jenny's mood seems to me like a contactor which loses its self-holding and the voltage drops so that no current flows. I am in Selbterhaltungskreis and the juice is turned to me as soon as it goes bad. And it's not even a question of will, but of being. Jenny is doing badly, so badly walk me regardless of my obs before 5 minutes there was dazzling. I usually have no problem when it can distract me and take me to other thoughts. To deprive me of my bad mood. However, I do not do when Jenny goes bad. My ambition goes in the direction I am trying to distract Jenny and lift their spirits, because it automatically with my mood is lifted. I've been trying almost blind and write as churning out death sentences in the situation because I never I is not berrücksichtige the Jenny but Jenny. And I think I know that Jenny needs a bath in a bad mood. I mean, who does not know this ... sometimes you are in a bad mood and then not savor the songwriter wrong "rumzukotzen" and then again to enjoy the good mood. Jenny seems to always do this. But how exactly they will not tell me. I will be there, promise not to break at all, his guilt or something like that. I think I Währe even with all the fault at Jenny's in a bad mood when her grandmother would die. Bad mood is there's more than understandable, but I blame Währe with tuned because we have not visited them often. Here, the Anzahlt of visits would be measured relative. True to the motto: Do what me wrong, you have me do three times something good so I forgive you. Why four days long holiday for two is not enough to outweigh the 10 days leave alone. It would do only 20 more days. And all in turn my helplessness, the pain and the resulting anger about the helplessness feeds due to spontaneous illogical drafts from the perspective / mind of Jenny. The Bills may at next day his pase, which I can not figure it out. In return, I will say that is what I do and do what I say. What I say must be the law of you can talk to. And when I say that this does not work, then you can not trust just me. Can be that easy for Jenny. I feel as plenty left outside and wants to play where the music plays. Want to understand how this man has crocheted and knit me more and more in the spirit of this sick, I have sworn to heal me. I am too weak and simply not able to. I have failed. I will not give up. Giving up is a subject of Jenny I want her denials. I will encourage all the setbacks, just as if to continue. A little more "top shit" mentality it would do quite well. Maybe it has the yes, but somehow the lights always after "even sleep over it." This long time, Jenny takes to adjust to something to come with conditions clearly makes it so hard for me to recognize their true position. Everything takes so lots of time and time is the luxury I have not. Jenny would do better the common luxury of time to make better use of changed circumstances in which they don `t accept so quickly the carefree time can be better utilized. Time is too limited and short second and is becoming increasingly shorter. Quick adjustment - spontaneity that worries me. I wish the Adaptable dinosaurs had been, they would still run around and today I would have beeen at rumreiten Veloceraptor and stupid not to NEM horse. Dinosaur food - HA! And small dogs in between. At best this nasty little yapper - Schwupps away. The satisfaction would undoubtedly be greater.
I hear the solo from Bleed and it reflects the transience of time again - the fleeting beauty in the midst of the rugged Stakatogeriff. I have to laugh at the thought. The world is harsh, sharp and rocky. You can head vorran push away a few stone points. The break down if one is strong enough, but it hurt in the process and at some point very much earlier die. So I'll make me thin and smooth. Water needs anyway everyone, so why not. And stone and pointed, hard is it does not matter - so.
Damn girl why do you and me mode so difficult. Happiness comes before and AFTER the shit stay as songwriter and always will. So better get used to the shit and does it as quickly as possible to come out of the like:) may come to be almost certainly the shit she goes over now. How quickly is the intended one is on the whole itself.
I think currently I have enough to the storm of the brain can whirl. Fuck the Hamburg hotel. Do not stress, look again, as so often (who makes many times can actually very soon!) forward! Take courage and remember the essentials even if the little you have and are and the fact that you can expand and improve it. Always. Any time. At some point, but best right now, and above all;), not tomorrow ... where everything can look different again. NO damn it, it can all look completely different. Potential of skim-and - get out what works and then folded this and you have options! So this and you'll all benefit if it is necessary to hang you with an option to stay is tolerable and you continue through life, leads or brings. I can get excited about it! Increase me in - the anger ignited the sparks fly - oh but if only the smallest spark would skip ... That would be like ointment on burnt skin. Water for inflamed heart. Blood in the veins ....
I were a real twin, I would probably advise me to make up with you. But I can not, I will not. Nothing is further up than to let them down. I do not want to lose because of you and your head crap and a little further and not because of all this - I will not give up, give you, for you alone because you but nothing could start with you find you still have problems you do with me anzufagen. And even I have yet to cripple many spirits gathered in me. The world can tell me your views and thoughts forever and shit and I will finally you understand what bothers me. It's not you yourself are but what you're doing to you for the part itself. So unnecessary. So annoying. Grrrr ... Sun .. not that you indicated. And so I can not stand up but not the what you do so often. It bugs me and I ask myself every time for the meaning ... what drives you on how it could come to this you act like this ... You, my science object, and so much more. Undeniably diverse. Although self-destructive and regret to all these self-destructive variety, certainly in part, beyond repair, senseless, blind, nothing berreuend in the heat of battle. Miss you and love you like I miss you and love you. The way I love every facet of you and miss you you and me in Noise even destroy.
example? Werzinger. They like you, who have no problem with you. Instead, you cook formally rage. The anger you've cooked yourself. The "I only sleep about it" anger. It's just stupid being stupid ... does not apply. Or is it? You spoil me and you quality of life. Since the disease is not far away. I love you, but you do not check. I can not help you. I'll try to help you miserably to help themselves, but I do not find the right tool.
The cat is wearing a pink panties of yours - could brülln shit:)
I hear Meshuggah in a loop ... If given this band a year ago I would have played away shaking his head. Now I sit and discover the craziest beats - so-called Polyrythmen - in each run a bit more. Now I might have liked something from the Jazz - this crazy hyper-intellectual. And then there but the people who actually take over from jazz to metal. Each instrument plays a different tact and for whatever reason you can hear the the surface do not hear - only when you listen closer and the clock is messed mitklopft one evil. The funny at various bars is yes, they rise again someday. No wonder then jazz students are also on Meshuggah. Metal with right then. Well, now I'm not dimensions to someone to be of the "worst has clear view" - but I like what I hear. Just so I'm already pretty far away. I have the feeling no one understands the music. No one is riveted by this "joke" ... I feel alien, because I find these and other catchy music. Good music I've heard so far is crazy to POP, everything ... Gene Hoglan, Tomas Haake - Drumm my gods:)
ultimately, I am not alone, might otherwise have the bands that I do not hear a great success - it surprised me not why one never hears on the radio like this. And if I disclose where I want then no one wants to play, because "too hard". How ridiculous ... what I meisst geil place is held in mid tempo - a lot of neat Stakatogitarren and mesmerizing lyrics.
"People do not like my music are either stupid or dead - for both I have no time." The Lord Townsend has soooo right.
I just want my peace and just prefer to do everything at once and love and be loved ... the meisst me, however, is to be understood at heart and that's not all too hard - I status but also (less joke on the edge). I want to understand what I'm saying is it so important and what I mean and not how it goes. Who knows how wrong is an asshole and no one really wants to be an asshole when I say often of one to me be ...
